I started obsessing over my weight probably my sophomore year of college. I didn’t gain the freshman fifteen but I did notice the scale tipping a bit. For the next ten years I would use the scale as an indication of how beautiful I should feel as a young adult. I thought to myself, I will be desired as a woman if the numbers are under such and such. My confidence depended on what that awful little machine reported back.
It wasn’t until six years ago when I realized numbers on a scale meant crap. I had to re-create and re-shape my idea of sexy and fit and healthy. My work-outs changed as I started adding more strength training to my routine. I also became more aware of just how much my diet affected my health. I joined a new fitness facility with my initial goal to “lose weight.”
It was all well and good and after a year I had never felt so strong and healthy in my life. The funny thing was, I gained eight pounds in the process and still maintain that weight today. At first I was mortified and actually considered quitting because it was having the opposite affect I wanted. But with some reassurance, some research and a little adjustment on my thinking, I realized I was way better off at a higher weight. Muscle doesn’t weigh more than fat, a pound is a pound, but it does take up less space than fat.
It makes me so sad that I dwelled on what my scale was telling me for so long. My point in all this is to invite readers to take a look at what they consider beautiful and why, I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one who was trapped in this mindset.
And maybe get a little mad. Did you know home scales were invented by insurance companies? Oh yes. Insurance companies have dictated what is considered healthy since the 1930s. You can thank them for the BMI charts too. This article was recommended to me if you’re interested in learning more (http://www.smashyourscale.com/blog/the-bathroom-scale-a-weapon-of-mass-destruction/).
I don’t own a scale. And I suggest if you do, take it out back and smash it! I imagine the scene from Office Space, you know the one (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=N9wsjroVlu8). It would be so empowering.
So don’t focus on the numbers and keep working hard on your version of beautiful.
- Katie, aka The Naked Nurse